Melódica Melancolia

Tristeza se exprime em nota.
No descompasso dos arpejos menores, vincando o piano como sulcos pesados de lágrimas salgadas. Nas mãos frenéticas soando juntas, longe, perto, grave, forte, às vezes rápido outras tão lento como o pulsar de um coração moribundo... Ah, melódico e doce choro, pesada saudade, melancolia rabiscada em partitura! Me inunda a alma, acordes e dissonâncias com cheiro de mar, com gosto das amarguras da vida - perda. Chuva. Gotículas de som molhando a pele, embaçando a vista, turvando a retina com seus golpes frios. Impiedoso orgulho, sai do meu peito e corre, escorre pelos braços e derrete sobre as teclas claras, mancha sua candura, encarde sua brancura, mela sua canção.
Mas deixe-me, tristeza, inimiga pegajosa, alcance os céus com os sons que choro com as mãos hoje.


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