Arctic sea

You were so fragile that day
Your voice would speak in cracks
As if a broken sense of self 
Was subsisting under skin.
I barely knew the words 
They somehow didn't matter
As your eyes stared at mine
Deep pools of green water.
You were trapped in a body
But now you would be free.
That's why you left 
And drowned

Inside of me.

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